Welcome, May!

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The past few weeks have been stressful. Training new employees, dealing with difficult customers, not sleeping well, not exercising (I’ve gained 20 pounds in the last two years), getting through family drama (two life-threatening events in the same day, 2000 miles apart: my dad’s heart attack in NM and a 9 year grandchild starting the rest of his life with Type 1 Diabetes) . . .  My CrossFit lifestyle withered into oblivion when I lost my job at the University in 2020, as Covid got going. Deep depression brought me to a standstill as I took a few months to try to reset. Since then, my physical status has been on steady decline. Now my daily schedule looks something like this: Work 3-11 pm (on a good day), Go to bed at 4 am, get up between 10:30 am and noon, get booted up and go back to work. If I get one day off a week I’m fortunate. At least I don’t have to work all night for now. That was the worst.  So I haven’t had time or energy to do much, even read, much less write. And since my

Self-assessment (part 1)

“Above all, it is necessary for a person to have a true self-estimate, for we commonly think we can do more than we really can.” – Seneca, On Tranquility of Mind, 5.2
  • When you look inside, what do you see? Who do you see? 
  • What times stand out in your life where you surprisingly succeeded or miserably failed? 
  • When did you do more than was expected or bite off more than you can chew? 
Nearly every day at noon I do one thing that makes me say, "what did I just get myself in to?" 
One of my training partners invariably and succinctly says, "well that sucked." But you know, that one thing serves to remind me to check myself--what is realistic? Every time I am confident I can do it and every time (nearly) I reach a point when I think I can't do any more but when I reach that line, I step over and before long it's done. I train because it's hard. 

I train because harder things happen in real life. 
  • So how do you start your day? Do you take a moment to "see" what's coming and prepare yourself? Have you trained mentally, emotionally, spiritually, even physically? 
  • And as the day rolls on, do you fall back on your preparations, your training? 
  • What about the end of the day? I like to sit down with my journal and try to grab at least one facet of the day and analyze it, assessing myself. Find my weaknesses and get to work turning them into strengths. 
Perhaps one great point to take from Seneca is this: say "no" to something. 

You don't have to get in over your head, but you can prepare for when that happens. 

Don't downgrade yourself by seeing yourself as less than you are (you can do much more than you are able) but don't think too highly of yourself either. Strengthen the ability to self-assess with honesty and get to work on what you are capable of--you'll know when to start cutting back. 

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